The Scale

5/17/11 ~ I began the day with fastng in the front of my mind, trying to prepare mentally and spiritually for surrendering my thoughts and actions to the Lord and opening myself to listening for Him. Then, before the day really even began, I blew it! After having my second baby, stepping on the scale was a daily ritual for me, so I did the same this morning. I was not entirely disappointed by the number displayed, but then the thought crept into my mind, "just wait, skipping lunch will help me get to my goal weight!" Ugh, now I can't fast- obviously my intentions are impure, God will see only selfishness in my febal offering.

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men or of God. If I were still trying to win the approval of men, I would not be a servant of God" Galations 1:10

My prayer for today's fast was that God would make all of my actions pure for Him, to serve Him better, not to look better to others. For instance, I have a great friend who likes to bake, and bakes well. So whenever we get together, there are always delicious desserts. I have a difficult time holding back from taking a second, third, seventh helping sometmes. I wonder what others think when I grab for more and get embarrassed, but wouldn't it be more pleasing to God to think about what I eat because my body is a temple for the Holy Spirit and He wants me to be healthy instead? So today I am praying and fasting for God to remind me that food does not have control over me, or any human beings who struggle with food-related illnesses. Funny related story, we got an updated picture of our African sponsor child, Janefer, in the mail the other day, and I chuckled to Matt that she looked a little 'chunky'- normally I would never describe anyone like this of course, but what a great testament to the work that Compassion International is doing there, right! To take a girl, who 5 years ago was skinny from hunger, and lead her to a place of fullness- physically and spiritually, is just amazing, and puts food into perspective.